Recently I went to a dead celebrity fancy dress party, at first it seemed such a hassle deciding who to be! It seemed to take the joy out of choosing, time was short and then I was debating should I hire a costume? That would probably be for the weekend, or……..then getting confused as everyone was being so helpful making their suggestions as to who I could go as. I then had to laugh I had made something so easy and potentially fun, into something serious and stressful…….I needed to become empowered and decide for myself. In the end I choose dusty springfield and the minute I made the decision everything came together. My lovely neighbours presented me with a wig and a 60s dress and I found the false eyelashes, microphone, hairband and boots. A lovely friend created the hair! I realised once I had made the decision, on what to go as, the rest became easy and I had fun collecting what I was going to wear!! How easy did I go into fear and confusion which took over my thoughts and that then stopped the joy. Funny isn’t it……what deciding to go to a fancy dress brings up …….. Just some thoughts…….when was the last time you potentially turned something light and fun into seriousness x
what can’t I say that I want to say, confident and aloud, why can’t I say what I want to say, instead I feel frustrated and worn down.
Im careful of your feelings, but don’t deal with my own, where voices shout at me loud from within, to make my feelings known.
I might offend you, and I care, and still I cannot say, how hurt and angry you make me feel, most of my day. I usually sigh and suppress it all, then no one ever knows, oh how I wish that courage would come, and I could say out loud, “I don’t agree” or “what about me?”, smiling, confident and proud.
Today’s’ a different story, I’ve finally found my voice, to say out loud what’s deep inside; I’ve learnt not to suppress. I am important and I matter, and deep inside I know, that confidence and self esteem are the only way to go. No one can take this away from me, because inside, it’s meant to be an everlasting quality.
Hearing a conversation yesterday whilst having a cuppa, two men said their wives had tried meditation as it helps to clear the mind, apparently….. However when they came back they said it didn’t work because their mind couldn’t clear….. It made me smile to myself as I normally get this reaction when people come to me on an introduction to meditation programme. Sometimes, what they fail to realise is that why if you have a busy mind normally, would you expect it to clear the minute you decide to clear it? That doesn’t make sense to me! Meditation is a discipline and one in which takes time to develop, and the benefits to your emotional health and wellbeing are amazing. Everyday people are rushing to fit things in their daily life, until the day your health suffers, this could be years down the line…..but happen it will, I am sure, because of daily pressures. The meditation I teach is a mix of different ways, no specific way, one that tailors to the individual, even if you are in a group, because if it makes sense to you, it’s working…..when was the last time you empowered you by a decision you made that felt good……www.debbiemcleod.co.uk